nothin I do is ever enough. nothing I say is ever right. nothing I do makes me people happy. I try so hard, but what’s the point?
you told me this year would be different
you told me you wouldn’t drink as much
you told me things would get better..
only I still find myself worrying… wondering…
you’re out twice as much
& now we feel more distant than ever
words can’t describe the love that I have for you.
words can’t describe how badly I want you.
words can’t describe how much I need you.
words can not even begin this describe the way I feel about you.
I’ll never be able to tell you how much I care about you.
I’ll never be able to find the words, but I try.
I try so hard to tell you how much I love you.
I try so hard to tell you how badly I want you.
I try so hard to tell you how much I care about you.
I try so hard.
I try so hard to love you with all that I have, but you never let me in.
I try so hard to give you all that I have, but you’re constantly pushing me away.
How is it that I try so hard, but I still don’t feel like I make you happy.
I try so hard but I feel like you don’t want me to.
I love you so much, but I don’t know if you love me anymore.
I feel so sick when I remember all the flirtatious things they said to each other and all the secret meet ups he tried to arrange with her because I tried so hard to push down how wrong I knew it was and trust him. What the fuck did I ever trust him for? My heart threatens to beat out of my chest. I wish he had dumped me sooner. I wish he had never asked me out. I wish I had never met him. I wish I had walked away. I wish I hadn’t tried to trust him over my own feelings. I should never have let him talk down to me all those times when I was right. I feel sick. But it all helps to rid myself of his poison. He intentionally sends me things he knows will hurt me. What the fuck have I done
(via whatevauwantt)
I don’t know if I can do this much longer
I can’t remember the last time I had a night this tough, can’t remember the last time I cried this much. I can’t remember…
never thought I’d actually be happy to not be spending thanksgiving with my family
I want to give you all the love I have to offer you. If you’ll let me…